January Blues

With a title like that, and this being a music site, I bet you are expecting me to write about 'The Blues'. Today, however I feel like ranting about the late winter phenomenon that turns the 'cheeriest bloke' into a 'miserable Joe'. I am not immune to this cyclical condition, that each post Christmas season I swear I will not return to. But yet again, this mid-January I feel as blue as ever. Partly I am sure, it is due to the unsettled feeling one gets when a departure from the norm is imminent. You see for me (hmmm rhyming words) the countdown to unemployment has begun. In just less than 9 months I will be voluntarily casting myself out of the world of the regular paycheck to frolic amongst the other 'ambition-filled-stary-eyed and hungry musicians' that roam the planet in search of the elusive agent and career boosting gig. Please do not misinterpret what I am writing. On any given day I can whip myself into a euphoric frenzy discussing or dreaming about becoming a full time traveling musician. But today 5lbs of Christmas eating heavier and low in blood sugar from the abrupt departure of any glucose in my house (going cold turkey)I feel blue and unsettled. The artist in me says to 'harness the emotion''pick up you guitar and write is away' but the girl that just about died running a 5k that 4 weeks ago was a walk in the park, says hostile things that can only be described as 'bitchy'. Hmmmm I usually hate that word. But it is seeminlgy appropriate today.